Down & Out.

Unhappy.

She's a Bad Mamma Jamma.

Pass The Ball Number 15 !!!

wow. I love Lezliee. we went to a basket ball game yesterday for CCRi. smh. thats all i gotta say. we ate saco billl and explored Knight. that was fun. we laughed a lot. but then again, thats us.

right now i'm preparing myself to go do all my errands with Baby aka Anthony aka lemme brace myself. I gotta take em to get a line-up and when he's in a bitchy mood, we all know how that can go. fuckk it. today is pay-day. hollaa. then I'm picking my sisters up from school. and taking them to the movies to see .. .The forgotten ? idk wtf the name is but chea. trying to be nice. my mom said she wanted to go buy more sneakers for Anthony from "Evelyns" lmao. I'm about to stop writing here, order her some Chinese and take it to her for her break cuz I'm just a bomb ass daughter. I just realized that I have a lot of angry words to a certain someone. But I think he got the message and stopped bothering me so who knows when I'll have the chance to say anything. I want/need my camera. real bad. I miss you Sammybooboo. ah well, nothing berry intresting here. I really want to delete my blog. idk why well i do.. w/e, but my better half says that as long as he's following it, I better not. But lets be serious. When do I ever listen to him ?

Hate is a Strong word, It'll do.

Is the flame not still there if seeing you ignites the spark

Picture this after a thousand words said

we could never understand what was in each others heads

I worked: 630 to 10 am yesterday. went back 7pm to 12pm.

went back 5am to 10pm.

needless to say that with all this snow & lack of sleep;

fuckk school.

I'm itching to get a rid of this soon. real soon.

Lezlie should be coming over today. so we can watch Wall-E.

I'm rocking Lixis's ring until I see her.

What goes around comes around motherfucker, I got yours.

Nadia kept saying "Be Easy Breezy" -__________-

You said all that shit just so I could forgive.

but, talk is cheap. EVERYONE can afford it.

It's all `G though.

ima take my pictures.

"Why go out for chicken when I have steak at home"

I miss Joel Soriano. baddd.

NO. I DID NOT DYE MY HAIR.

I haven't even brought myself to changing my passwords.

I wonder if you read this as much as you claim to.

The kid sitting next to me in my COMP1 class had my favorite

pair of Jordans on. Nicole called me feind. GET THE FCK OUT !
here are some oldies kinda ? whatev. enjoy.

The New Girl In Town

In my Composition 1 class. which did I mention, I hate.

Nicole is the only good thing about it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUAN "JUANITO" MARTINEZ.

you were once cool =P nosa lol. have lots and lots and lots of fun.

and remember DON'T SLEEP AT HOME! that's the goal.

sleep on a park bench if you have to.. but dont sleep at home.

Yesterday:

I spent my evening with mami Lezlie.

that was vital to my existence.

&& We paid my Nobia Peanut a visit at the petchop. cute cute.

Then we chilled. and we were pooped when we got home.

She's gonna sleep over one of these days.

UHM, someone told me not to talk about them on my blog a lot..

cuz I'm not spoken about in theirs.. so I'll give it a go.

I took a couple of pictures on my Bitch cuz my baby Sammy is currently being sent off to west chapiki to be fixed by some weird dudes..

I'm not paying so Fck itt.

I guess i'll attempt to have pictures up later..

most likely tomorrow considering how I pull doubles

at my job on Tuesdays womp.

"Im a Crinible !" Zavier's a cool kid, when he's not farting in the car lol

"COMEE TO POPPAA !!"

I never ask for nudies from anyone that I'm not involved with.

Therefore I won't go out of my way to send anyone pictures of myself either.

lets keep that in mind now shall we.

Birthdays in: 12 days.

if you don't care for me, please don't claim to.

Sick of Vacation hair. Which reminds me.

I'm keeping my fingers firmly crossed.

I want DR this year. I need DR in my life this year.

AHH the cross-eyed bitch wants to begin class.

BE EASY BREEZiES.

Bound by The Laws of The Same Routine.

Some people just don't get it.

Tmobile Dash. I need in.

Recess. Now I have nothing to look Foward to.

Everyone does them.

So don't get mad when I do MErcedes.

Science Fairs, I won my share.

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No. No. No more waiting. No. NO.

Eh. idc if you don't like me. I probably think ur ugly anyway.

Scared of no one. only one that can stop me is that chick in the mirror.

Suck Me Off.

Coming atcha Via Hiptop

our detergent is frozen.
I look like a retard walking around with Stephans adidas. but.. fuck it.
I'm tired. & my back is worse. Guess ima call up Dr. Kristen.
ima chill with Lely tonight. happy =]
"Nicole, he touched you ?!" haha
well, I'm glad we got that cleared up.
my mom is getting her incometax check 2 days before my birthday. oOoh yeahh 8]
yous aint nothing but numbers.

Repeat.

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue

And right now radio's all that we can hear

That we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due

It's cold outside but between us its worse in here ..

The world slows down

But my heart beats fast right now

I know this is the part

Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through our fingers

I don't wanna try now

All that's lefts good-bye

To find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here

I hate this part right here

I just can't take your tears

I hate this part right here

Thank You Bob :]

"Those who control the means of production, control all other areas of society."

That's what my qwerty [ in other words; iffy ] sociology teacher told us to remember. that its gonna come up a lot during the course. .. . oHkay ? that class is pretty interesting. i mean she managed to keep me interested at 10 am after going to sleep at 3 am so kudos to her. she kept talking about how like our economy is all fucked up and how Karl Marx, who was one of the founding fathers of sociology, was a communist and that either way .. whether everyone is getting the same amount of money or the big dogs continue to fly on jets from point A and B while the average Joe barely gets by .. . everything is still gonna be fucked up cuz .. humans are greedy. O_o. oHkay to that tooo? idk I'm keeping my hopes up for the class cuz everyone says its dope. THEN I went to my Essentials for Physical Fitness classs. bueeeeno.. I guess it is kinda like gym. an hour of learning and an hour of going down to the gym. easy. Old dude said most people take it to increase their GPA. yes pleasee! I have to write a cardiovascular endurance program and the effects on training, diet and nutrition .. ha. this should be interesting. well this is the factual post for the day. perhaps another one will come up tonight. idk i'm not feeling too hot so .. lets see que pasa.

Girl FLEXA

tmobile is fucking up. baddd man. they suspended my phone ! again ! after I def just paid 200 like 2 weeks ago. they're about to lose a customer. well on another note. Schools been straight. my first teacher was a bitch. she's racist. idgaf. then .. Karhina and I got lost looking for our psychology class at that confusing ass Lincoln campus. then no one shows up to my math class except for some cute white boy. WHATEV. I bought some books. we all know they were some obscene amount of money so .. no point in sharing. UHM I ended my night by going to RIC to spend time with Stephan. you know .. the boy I love. the boy that apparently .. makes the world smile. and the boy that I'm gonna fuck up soon enough. but enough about him. lets talk about .. . nothing. I have a 10`oclock class and I need shut eye. BEEEEE .. you know.

Narcissistic.

me. me. me. oh yeah and MErcedes.

Grumble.

Well. to begin. my poor baby Sammy broke. Sammy is my camera.

I'm waiting for Karhina. I haven't touched food since before my last post.

My car is fixed. Thank the Guats that work for my Uncles :]

I broke down. I hated it. I loved it. I love you. Fuck you though.

So I have my psych class at Lincoln today. and my math class at Knight.

talk about being all over this shitty state.

I have gotten no type of sleep. I guess I dont really miss it .. -_- i lied

lets keep it original people. no one likes a jockerrrr.

yes. Shia Labeouf is my OBSESSION.

Via Knight Campus.

Just finished having lunch with Chantelle, Nicole and Joee.

Class starts at 4. its 3:49.

I really despise when we're like this. hateHATEhate.

I'm pulling a double at work today cuz .. .

money is the motivation.

Pictures will be coming tonight I suppose.

just thought I'd let you breezies know to be easy.

Its Hard.

when you constantly feel like no matter how much you work at something .. . its just never enough. never enough. how is someone supposed to deal with that ? I have given myself completely. I think that was my downfall. you know what they say .. . never make someone you're priority when to them you're just an option. but .. its hard you know cuz you wish you could just grab the other person and be like .. . yo. can't you see you got a good thing ? gonna lose a diamond cuz you're too busy picking up stones. and what sucks the most is that ... no matter how much you wish you could be like fuck you. idgaf about you. do you cuz ima do me. what it comes down to is that when I love someone . .. i REALLY love someone. and I'll put myself through hell and back just to make sure that the person i love is happy. content. with or without me .. .

Let It Be Known

Relax inspired be to being blogging. .
& they started this movement. big ups to them.
& for the record, I Love L. Harris.

I've been a fool.

o_O

All jokes aside though, last night was fucking horrible.

So I woke up to a CRAZY amount of snow on top of my car. but for some reason .. . Timmy [ my car ] was the worst one in the driveway. fuck my life. So, here I am at 6am taking snow of this shit. BIG UPS TO ABE ! your gloves are keeping my digits warmm :] anyway. so now I'm working.

Can you tell I was excited to go ?

Anyway. it was straight. kinda slow. busy at times. Nadia and I kept getting ignorant ass customers that wanted to fight us. But I'm in a IDGAF mood so .. . whatev. Nadia on the other hand, got called four eyes. ha. but anyway. I took Timothy to the car shop cuz they're gonna attempt to fix it .. .once again. I need my joint to be DONE with puberty. can't stand the squeaky shit. now I'm home. walking around looking like this.

lemme hear it.

I'm real upset. Seems as though a lot of people are. My best friend called me this morning crying. I wish I could do that. I don't even like admitting to myself that I'm crying. is that a phobia ?

I cannot wait for this boy to get home. his name is Anthony. and although I know he was born on June 8th, 2006 at 4:54 am weighing 9 lbs and 12 oz. and just because I can locate every birth and beauty mark and dimple on his body. DOES NOT MEAN I'M HIS MOTHER. I mean come on. he's my brother. some may know him as Satan. Lucifer. The Devil. you know where I'm getting at. he's bad ass. but guess what, he makes me laugh. and although he annoys me. he doesn't make me cry. so fuck it. ima just stay home today. think shit through. you know.

Be Easy Breezy.

Hey, Who's The Girl With .. .

Vanessa Mercedes.

I'm eighteen years old. turning nineteen February 8th.

I'm a college student. I go to .. . College.

I work. I drive. I pay. I'm responsible. I'm single for the time being. well, maybe for the next year or so cuz shit just never seems right. smell me ? This blog isn't about me letting my emotions out so I can maybe change the perception some of you may have of me.

This is for my own personal well-being. I tend to bottle up my emotions because I hate feeling like a lil' bitch. crying and shit. So this is my own way of letting it all out. You probably wont understand half the things that I say. I hope its that way. Blah Blah Blah this is just small talk. I'm vexed right now so i'll cut this short for the time being. I just wanted to see how this little thing worked out.

be easy breezy.