Get that

Kanye's girl got a girlfriend. woww.

Want

H&M Jacket. I want it.

We Gotta make it work ..

this can only be as good as we both make it
yeah sometimes its gonna hurt .. .
we can be as happy as we want to be
girl but we gotta make it work.

I'm Sorry.

Haze 32 bars light


I miss you. a lot. I hope you make it.
ima always be here for you. even though
you don't want me to be. it's okay.
I still have your poem. I read it from
time to time. I hope you're okay..
and Issac and Ismary too.. and your dad.
uhm, thanks for being the only dude that never
made me cry.. you're the only dude that .. .
never hurt me. you were always there for me.
and .. I fucked up. sorry kid. te quiero Isai.
I think deep down inside; you're the onlyreason I haven't changed my phone number.just in case one day you wanna hear my voice again.I haven't changed my passwords either.
and even though I love someone else. and I have someoneto occupy my mind with. the love I have for you will always be there.

Repeat Repeat "/.

Lions, Tigers and Bears - Jazmine Sullivan

Most circumstances I know my fate

But in this love thang I don't get the game

Why does it feel like those who give in,

They only wind up losing a friend?

Just cause I love u and u love me,

It doesn't mean that we'll ever be,

Fly cross the ocean, sing for the Queen,

But the most frightening thing is you & me.

Resentment - Beyonce

I only give you a hard time'

Cause I can't go on and pretend like

I haven't tried to forget this

But I'm much too full of resentment

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me

Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no

The very thing you gave to me

I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed

As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same

And it's all because you lied.

Wow.

he was smart. just shut his mouth and walked away.
I'm going to take pointers.

no one cares.
you're not important.
I'm sticking to mine.
I can hold my own ground.
everything in this room reminds me of you.
Dayanna has bangs now. she looks adorable.
I made it this far. I'm about to go the distance.
That's gonna hurt OD though.
-- fuck it. so will child birth.
"If he did it to her; what makes you think he won't do it to you"
I don't believe anyone loves me. like, really loves me.
besides my mother. who btw, is a saint.
if they want you .. . they can have you.
I finished both of my applications.
Hurry up Elle Harris.
what to do tomorrow. what to do.
I was given a Build-a-bear today.

his name is Harry.
I'm going to have to take his hat off if I'm going sleep with him.
hats get in the middle of everything.
"it's hard to believe I'm still lonely."
I know I'm the last thing on your mind.

"doing more than i've ever done for anyones attention, take notice of whats in front of you cuz did I mention, you're about to miss a good thing. and you'll know how good it feels to have .. all of my affection. and you'll never get a chance to experience my loving. cuz my loving feels like . .." Alicia Keys.

Via Hiptop 2.

I'm at court right now. in a conference room waiting for my lawyer. this foreclosure business is no joke. I'm talking to my mom. I'm telling her stuff. she's giving me advice. asking me questions. I'm giving her answers. its sucks to be in the position I'm in. but once again, you'd think my dumbass would be used to it. "this too shall pass " ; last night was another horrible night. I didn't sleep. and the little sleep I did get, caused my eyes to get puffy & shit. I'm sick of crying. & I'm sick of not being happy. i don't want to go to class today. & I def. don't want to go to work. but whatever.

its not fair. I can never be happy.

Keep it Moving.

`bouta go to class early before I lose my momentum.

Abalo and Byron came to visit me at Dunkin' today.

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ABALO NUNEZ. love love.

I gotta stop slackin' and chill with them more often.

I'ma go to Classical soon though.

For business. that'll soon turn to pleasure.

I wanna see if I'll still get called a bitch .. . you know.

while standing right in front of my face. I wanna see.

anyway. today's my sisters birthday -___,-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAOLA .. .dumbass.

Everytime I try to leave something keeps pulling me back.

Well ima head off. walk around Knight.

gonna listen to :

I've liked Drake for a while now. Lets see if this sways my opinion lol.

BEE EASY MOTHEREFFiN BREEZiES.

You're Right.

You are so right Ms. Shaq ` Diesel.

oh cuz .. .yeah that's what we call you.

anyway, you're right.

I'm in college. I shouldn't be worried about

what a little highschool'er like you is saying about me.

a little highschool'er that has OD problems on top of that.

its funny how much girls have changed since I was a .. .sophomore ?

wait no .. . not girls. that's not fair.

cuz Jenifer's cool peoples. seems to be uhm only .. .YOU.

but anyway I never got caught in the position where .. . I was in love with someone ..

who .. . didn't want me back while also being in love with every other GIRL at Classical.

I honestly don't understand why you wanna bring more drama upon yourself.

the world can tell you already have enough sweetie.

all I ask of you is to stfu & keep my name out of your mouth.

keep my business out of your mouth.

its not a dick, or a pussy .. if that's in the mood you're in. . whatev.

keep it fucking moving. breezy.

btw: I deleted you're sn.

I'm not following you're blog.

anything you say from this point on is worthless to me.

Via Dunkin'

I'm upstairs; in the office.

doing my cashouts.

putting in the inventory.

usual Sunday shit.

sucks having to wake up at 4 to be here.

but I love when you're awake. :] thanks.

Crying out for Me - Mario

Just came up on my Pandora.

.. . I miss you Boochi.

even though you hate me.

I can live with that.

ANYWAY.

someone else that hates me.

it made me laugh when I found out.

and then ppl claim they're so MATURE!

I got you though.

wait till I go home and nap.

hope you're online.

AND NO. MY LAST POST HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH JENIFER.

I'll be more than happy to give you a reason to hate me.

PS.

* Providence is small. Minuscule. LICKLEE. if you must.

I'll show you how small .. .

.. . that small.

DO YOURSELF THE FAVOR

and please, don't take a personal stab at me

because .. . you don't know what I know.

and you def. don't know .. . who I just .. might know.

fuck with me. I'll fuck with you.

10 times harder.

I was tagged :]

Beautiful Ladies of Tasteless Diamonds tagged me :]

The rules: Write 16 things about yourself; tag however many people you want by leaving them a comment letting them know they've been tagged.

I'm tagging: Relax.

I know why you mad.

Taste My Thoughts.

& Kido's Dope !

1. I subconsciously dance to everything. even the beat

that drying clothes at the Laundromat makes.

2. I lived in New York, Minnesota and Currently live

in wack ass Providence, Rhode Island.

3. I want twins.

4. I hate most females. They talk too fucking much.

5. I hate when my mother cleans my room !

6. Shia Labeouf is my obsession. I love him.

7. I feel unappreciated. .. a lot.

8. I miss singing.

9. I was born in Dominican Republic.

10. Rachel McAdams is my favorite actress.

11. I love. Love. LOVE. Italian food.

12. I've never been drunk to the point of vomiting.

13. I care too much.

14. I love babies.

15. I hate odd numbers lol.

16. One of my goals is to be happy for a whole month.

All Hell is Going To Break Loose.

I started my day gooood :]

George came to see me while i was doing my hair.

we talked for mad. he told me a lot.

made me LAUGH MY ASS OFF.

and reminded me why I love his ass soo muchh.

then my ugly and I went to Foxwoods.

cuz his country ass has never been.
He served himself mad shit. and ate half.

wasteful.

I got him a G-Shock for his birthday.

I'm the best girlfriend ever.

Then we went back to RIC. blah blah. he got his ass beat.
a ugly ass bitch almost got her shit rocked too.
we argued.
we laughed.
he cried.
we slept. uncomfortably. but whatev.

Happy Birthday Ugly. I love you .. . sometimes.

Lol.

I know why I'm feeling like this.

I made a promise to myslelf.

I'm gonna keep it. No matter what.

I wish Febuary was the longest month.

but unfortunatly it's not.

So, I'm trying so hard to hold on

to the hope. to the feelings. to my happiness.

for the next couple of days.

* then you wonder why Drama always comes your way. smh.

I Don't Like Odd Numbers.

I stopped following about .. . 6 blogs.

YOU MOTHER FUCKERS BORE ME.

and .. . I'm not interested in anything

you have to say. you can blame it on me.

"Adieu and Goodnight"

Tynisha Keli

songs old. still worth to put on repeat once in a while.

I love the way my bitch sings it.

She needs to stop slacking and let that album drop.

-------------------------------------------------------------

Nina Sky's remix is my fave though.

Boy tell me what you want and I'll give you what you like

yea uh huh, alright, yes, my body's yours tonight

Anything that you need, you can have it from me

Cause baby I'm here to please,

so put your love into me

I know you like when I tease like that

(like that) like that, especially when I'm wet

DON'T STOP, ooh I like what you're doing so please don't move

Never met a man that turns me on like you do,Oh oh oh.

Son.

Someone got a new-new.

well. bagged himself a Lil' video vixen.

Amber Rose. smh. maybe she'll take the bitch out of him.

FYI: not everyone looks good in a pair of those.

tomorrow's Thursday. I should be reading for Sociology.

Timmy was smoking. I got him fixed though.

I went to Boston with a couple of buffoons.

for: Lezlie :]

this is my second favorite movie

"Meemo" according to Anthony, is number one.

A Pooch.

I was having a pretty good night last night

Until of course .. . it was ruined.

Why do I continue to get upset over shit I

should be used to by now ? . .. I'm a fool.

I'm glad I did that group thing though.

Got my mind off the bullshit, until i got home

and crashed of course. But I can deal with myself.

Strike 2.

The end of Feb. is going to reveal a lot.

hopefully, it'll go the way I've been wanting.

I finished my URI and RIC applications.

I think I'm only going to submit one though.

Kiara sent me a birthday card. She lives in Florida.

People that live a couple of blocks away,

couldn't even hit me up to say Happy Birthday.

but then I'm the bad one. fuck it.

UHM. Thursday.. he's gonna love it. but then again .. .

all he receives from me is happiness.

whatever.

I hate females. especially book smart dumb asses.

I already want today to end.

and Marvin just hit me up to remind me that it just started.

no wonder we didn't last.

I just really hope you prove all my girls wrong. I really do.

LOVEEEEE.

I absoloutly LOVE this movie.
Big ups to Disney's Pixar.

Suck.

This will be the random one.

"Why do they feel the need to do everything you do" - K. Pimentel.

Idk. it's annoying.

I love how .. . I'm there for people .. . but certain people aren't there for me.

IN EVERY SENSE OF THE PHRASE.

why do I have to be the one to hit someone up ?

why do I have to be the one to visit all the time?

why do I have to be the one to make the plans?

shit. my relationships with some people are just mad one way'd.

I wonder if I'd still be friends with half the people I'm cool with..

If I didn't have my car. probably not.

When some people are bored. I sit and help them out.

I'm bored .. . oh well. fck me right?

nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah.

I'm sick of my job. sick.

I'm sick of my sidekick.

I want to go to New York. to visit.

My Dad's side of the family is offering to send me to Spain.

I need to get my passport renewed.

& I still wanna go to Canada.

lemme find out you're feelin' him. I'll pop them titties with a quickness.

"you know what they say .. . wood doesn't grow on trees"

SMFH.

They ain't.

NO ONE ELSE CAN DO.

After work; I look hurt. I smell like money though. I mean .. Coffee.

I took my sister Miss Contaminated to her dermatologist appointment. We were bored.

Before the date. he tried keeping me home. holding my leg. saying his finger hurts. wanting to display all his toys. you know .. . 2 year old thing

-________-

When did this zygote learn so much ?

so boom. My ugly and I head to the mall to begin our date. The fcking mall is undergoing some type of .. . Fire Drill ? on Valentines Day ?! COMEE ONN. so, none of the shit we went to do was accomplished. I spent more than an hour stuck, trying to get out of the parking lot with a black boy who insisted on; beeping. singing .. badly at that and yelling shit out of the window *sigh*. WHATEV. we ended up doing our little nice nice thing. he knows what I'm talking about.

Lust.

I want this man. I bet he's a dickhead.

That's how I roll.

ohKay ?

Mamita Long Legs.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. iunnno. I'm whateverr about this. non me ne importa ! and for the first time in a while; I have a Valentine and It's still whatev. I should be ready to go on my .. . date? idk lol. but I'm posting. I'm sleeepies. I'm watching BEE movie. This movie makes me giggle. Give it to me baby. muaaha.

Wepa.

I miss high school. Scratch that. I miss class of `08.

Today has been blah. I skipped my gym class cuz I over-slept.

My throat hurts a liddo. Think I'm gettin sick again.

"I dig big black dudes" thats the last thing I heard. swear.

Anthony is eating a Happy Meal.

My sisters are eating Crown Fried Chicken.

My mother is eating Chinese.

I'm not hungry.

What to do tonight what to dooooo.

I had my first Sociology exam today. *crosses fingers*

and we got our research paper topic. I think ima choose Homelessness. and volunteer down at Crossroads for a bit. Just so I can get a better feel of what I'm writing.

You're getting sexier to me. way sexier.

I miss my PSP days.

I'm proud of myself. DAMNN PROUD OF MYSELF.

I want to dance. I haven't danced in a while.

and I wanna go to a good Hick party. or a good Latin night.

Seriously, after that shit you pulled, I don't even consider you my friend.

And although love sometimes hurts; I still put you first.

Strike one. You're time is running out.

"Blog Bangas" - That was clever. must admit.

Be Easy.

Drop Dead.

Bitches are mad cuz I KNOW what I want.

and what I want, wants me back.
Damn. It must REALLY suck to be miserable like you. POE!

so. my birthday weekend started off gooood. Friday me and a couple of my closest ones went to Dave & Busters. I saw Kenny and Abalo ! and Joel Sorianoo =]

then we all went back to RIC and had some sippy sip. fun.

Saturday. My ugly and I went and had dinner at texas road house. yum.

I'm not gonna comment on the rest of the night. roar.

Sunday. My mother took me to iHop. my father took me to applebees o_O.

& that was mommy's present to moi. yeah yup !

& thats Bobby Bitches McDougal. he's a fish. he's the shit. Lezlie and Nyquila gave him to me.

Then they sang happy birthday. Lezlie and Stephan are offically part of my family now.

A lot of things happened. lots of things were said. and .. . yeah. some things weren't said.. oh well. People showed their true colors this weekend. and all the fake " I miss you's and .. . You forgot about me" went to straight up hell. I know who's down for me, point blank. anyway Valentines day is comingg. I have minee. ha. Jelly ass bitches. can't get over that. Well. i have some comp 1 work to do so ima handle that.

BE EASY BREEZIES !

AHEM!

Today is my Birthday. Finally 19.

I'm waiting for my dad to pick me up so we can go out to eat.

AGAIN! I'm sick of eating.

This is just a mini post before the big BIG one comes.

Just wanted to let certain little girls know to 1. Stop Jockin'.

its really. REALLY. not a good look. and 2. Mind. Your. Fucking. Business.

what I do and who I do things with .. . is really none of your concern.

I'd stay off my shit list if I were you.

ANY - EFFING - WAY. It's my day. lemme relax.

I LOVE BOBBY BITCHES McDOUGAL !

Birthday Wish List.

Gift Cards: to anywhere you can think of. I Love Starbucks ;]

Black Socks.

Roses.

ChapStick.

Snapple Apple.

Build a Bears are always cute. i Love John Luis.

Books.

Magazines.

Purses and or New bag.

Lotion.

Shia Labeouf . i mean anything to do with him.

Movies.

Diamonds.

Gucci and Prada.

You.

take me to the $2 movie theater.

a Fish.

New car.

New pillows.

The 70s show season.

new Coat.

k. lemme stop wishing. fyi. I'm not expecting anything.

One Hell of a Female.

Birthday is on sunday kiddos.
Enough.

Everyone deserves someone to cuddle with.
And everyone needs to stop tryna get at mine.
September was a good month.
You never know what you have till its gone.

Broke. Broke. I'm going Broke lmao.
Roses. I've never been given roses...
Endings sometimes seem soo sad.
Enjoy your time in Prison son.
Zero tolerance for stupid females.
Yelling relieves stress.

Ain't Got Shit.

Mami (7:27:19 PM): yo.
Mami (7:27:24 PM): you are bangin
Mami (7:27:36 PM): i can make room for two gf's
Me (7:27:40 PM): lmfaooo
Mami (7:28:09 PM): not kiddin (///_-)

I Can't See Straight Anymore.

Anthony's a Cool kid. So Friday he came along to do all my errands. he was chillin. eating donuts. jam`n to the music. pointing out the birds.

& suddenly, the kid's into puckering.

then it was nap-time. in the mean while. we went to the barbershop. waited for Giovanni. he slept. I read this bangin' book Lezlie let me borrow. I'm almost done.

He took it like a Grown Ass Man.


He stole a hat from Children's Place.

And the gloves mind you.

Then, he wanted a Diego the Explorer bike. He was Diego. and I felt like Bob, you know the builder -___-.

&& this was my gift to .. me. UHM my day went pretty much down-hill from there. I don't want my birthday to come. I have like no intentions on getting my hopes up. I will be chilling at Dave & Busters on Friday though. at like 9pm. If you wanna come through and chill for a bit you're more than welcome. BUT uhm. I gotta go buy some brownie mix and get ready to go to RIC cuz its my boy RICHY PROFIT'S birthdayyy. so here's another Shoutout you undercover Guat =)

but uhm .. be easy none the less. ps. I'm craving taco bell. [ ????? ]