What more can I say?

Solitude.

Oh, so this is what it feels like? I've deactivated my Facebook, Twitter & I'm thinking of throwing my phone off a bridge. I don't want people to know where I am or what I'm doing. I'm sick of feeling trapped. I didn't migrate to this country at the age of 2 to not have any freedom 20 years later, damn it.

What am I saying? Throwing my phone off a bridge... pfft. Fuck me for trying to sound tough like I'm not looking at my phone every two seconds checking for the "hey this might be the message I've been waiting for all day.." light to blink. But, nope. Just someone else hitting me up to smoke because apparently, that's the only way people know how to be there for others this day and age.

I will prevail.

I will win.

I will succeed.

Because I was born to win & succeed. Clearly.

I will be better.

& I will make sure I help everyone around me be better.

TDTB

How could someone you could talk to, each and every day

That you 'bout to marry, be on their merry way

I'm singing through the pain like I was Mary J

Cause we break up to make up like Mary Kay

Rumors leaving tumors on my heart now

We fell in love huh just to fall apart now

I get your calls and I try to disregard now

What was easy for us now is hard now

Huh? Who do it better, we used to move together

Now we not together, is this our new forever?

Some of last year.

We turned 21.

Paola turned 15.

Trips to Boston to visit @BooMBuSSit

Watched @CeezLuciano perform, a bunch

My sisters addition to the family.

Melanie is queen.

See?

Summer boat ride.
Phoenix.
Says it all LOL.Visit.
Highlight.
Still loving.
A lot of Chinese.
Missing this beautiful person. Nahya <3 .

Welcome.

Well, hello there. I hate myself a bit for not blogging an entire year of my life because I can't look back at anything. Especially since my memory is fuckin' shot. I've spent that year on twitter for the most part, trying to befriend people / keep in contact with people who I'm better off without. Uh.. let me be the first to say..

WHAT A FUCKIN' WASTE.

BUT, out with the bad and in with the good meaning back to delving into my own thoughts and focusing less on everyone else's. I seriously think that website had me creating myself a paranoid personality. I don't like feeling targeted, but then I think, who am I to these people to be targeted in the first place? Whatever, you'd be surprised. People are so indirect, it's scary. I'm all set.

This year I will try my hardest to be on here heavy so that I can share my journey to greatness with those who take the time to care and read. If you made it this far I would like to take this time to wish you a very Happy New Year. May it bring you nothing less than what your heart desires. Wishing happiness, success & progression to every soul in this daily struggle. Keep your head up and your thoughts and dreams higher. & above all, never stop loving. Welcome back.

Bangs.

Before.

After.

Thirty thousand feet up

& you are not invited.

I applied to The Illuminati.

I had two jobs, until this morning.

I registered for classes.

My Mom knows I blow back.

I have two new piercings.

Wall Street poster = LOVE.

Shoutout to Melissa Polanco.

Jay Elec is signed to Roc Nation.

I'm down for THE movement.

Three months & I'll be drinking like a fish.

The Christmas tree is up.

Where did the year go?

Its a bittersweet feeling wanting to know everything. Sometimes I feel like that's my problem. I want to know it all. That's why I observe so hard & ask so many questions. Of course there are things I find out that hurt, but I have to take it along with the good. I'm in this for myself at the end of the day.

"If I had it my way, every day be Friday."

I APOLOGIZE!

I've been slacking.

Tremendously.

& for that I apologize.

I have no appendix.

Theres an addition to the family.

I'm getting shit done.

What shit you ask?

DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT!

I don't hate her.

Giggly, horny, talkative drunk.

I really hope I have a dope weekend.

I have sex appeal & I didn't even know it.

Well, maybe I did.

"I'm just low key with it"

I'm sorry that I'm on tumblr more.

It's more entertaining.

There's dicks there. Kidding ahaha.

I'm falling in love with the person I'm becoming to be.